Realistic Dreams

My husband is currently deployed in Bahrain. Unlike my daughter, Sophie, I have been handling it unbelievably well. However, even thought I handle things pretty well, it doesn’t mean I don’t get bouts of depression. Today is one of those days. I put my daughter down for a nap after I read to her a book on military life. I headed downstairs and feel asleep on the couch while watching an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond. I had the most realistic dream ever.

I was sitting in the same spot I happen to be napping on and my wonderful husband walks through the door. I mention to him how ecstatic our daughter will be to see him when she wakes up and he sits down next to me. (In the spot I happen to actually be laying my head on, having this dream.) In the dream, we are watching T.V., like we usually do. I fall asleep on his lap. (which are in the same exact spot of the pillows I happen to be sleeping on) I can actually feel my head sinking into his lap, I can feel his warmth, and then I wake up and I feel an incredible, overwhelming feeling of sadness.

I have now tried to drink those feelings away with a few glasses of wine, maybe I should be happy there are no nutritional facts on the bottles of wine and don’t have to feel terrible over the amount of calories I have consumed.

On a much happier note, I had a great yoga session today.

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I ran for the first time in months yesterday… It wasn’t pretty and I expected a lot more from myself. After a half a mile I was tired and little bit past that I had to take my first walking break… I took two more breaks after that. That’s a total of 3 walking breaks in a run that wasn’t even a full 2 miles long. Sigh. I kept getting some odd cramping pain in my lower abdominal, I would like to blame that but part of it I was just tired.

I am going to look past the fact that I didn’t do as well as I expected and be glad that I put myself out there after months of being a couch potato. Before my ran I literally sat on the couch all day and watched tv, so it took a bit of talking myself into running. Today, my abs and thighs felt a bit of a burn. I am grateful that even though I feel like I could have had a much better run; I am still feeling like I accomplished, something. One day at a time, that’s the plan.

New Years Resolutions

It’s that time of year where we all make goals for the new year. For a minute I decided I was not going to do that, but I quickly changed my mind. Goals are fantastic. Most of my goals are fitness related, but the other include photography and my daughter. Anyway, the list:

1. Enjoy running again, run both a 5k and 10k.
2. Tighten, tighten, tighten. I want a tight ass, belly and I want my love handles to disappear by the time my husband returns from deployment. (may)
3. Improve my photography, both personally and professionally.
4. Be more active with Sophie, biking, hiking, sports and etc.
5. Eat healthier, more fruits and veggies and less processed food.
6. Make a daily dinner, even when The Hubs is gone.
7. Read at least one book a month.
8. Blog again, both for my fitness goals and my photography.
9. Be more patient.

It’s a long list, but this is an ongoing list I have made since before New Years. I just seem to forget whats important to me sometimes.

Let’s hope the blog doesn’t bore me again. Most of the time it’s a great source of motivation. The rest of the time, it bores me.

Its been a while..

Its been very hard for me to be motivated, but alas, here I am again. I am eating a lot of junk and not exercising and nothing seems to motivate me lately. So I am back on the blog hoping it will help me be motivated. The most I have run straight lately is a mile and a half, which isnt very much since a year ago I was training towards a 5k, I should be running atleast that much. This past week the exercise/eat healthy itch is coming back, finally, and I hope I can keep it up.

So, my plan of action is to sign up for a 5k in 4-6 weeks and train my hardest for it so that I can get back into running and so that I can run a minimum of 3 miles on each one of my runs.

Cheers to motivation!

As I promised:

Picture time!!

my most recent hair

 Now onto my garden

Gardening is so much fun, not too much work but it is so rewarding to see something you are giving love and care to grow! Maybe thats why I love being a mother?!

Update

My life since I have been gone hasn’t been too exciting, but I guess there are a few things to tell. I have officially lost a total of 30lbs in one year (it had been 35 but I gained those last 5lbs back pretty quickly.) I am finally making friends here in Virginia and it is making me feel more at home. I finally got a referral to the GI doctor to find out what is wrong with me and it turns out I have both gastritis and mild esophigitis, I am glad to finally be on a path to recovery. Tomorrow I have an ultrasound appointment to make sure nothing else is wrong with me.

It is starting to get hot and humid, I went running for the first time in this weather and IT SUCKS. I am used to dry weather and running in the humidity for the first time felt like I was running for the first time ever. After a minute I started to get sweaty and it was hard to breathe. I usually begin to sweat towards the very end of my run. I think this means I will have to re-fall in love with running.

While I have lost a lot of weight I am at a dead end. I need to tone and most of it is in my core and I don’t know what to do. Sure I can read online, but I am never sure how much of it to do and those types of things NEVER motivate me. I wish I could afford a personal trainer.

One more thing, I chopped off my hair and have had it a variety of different colors in the past few months. Tomorrow I will post a picture of my most recent hair and color. Oh, and I have a garden now!

GOALS:

1. Be more green by producing less trash.
2. Reestablish a workout routine
3. TONE!
4. Run a 5k.
5.  Stop eating junk food (I had done GREAT with this, until these past couple of weeks, I seem to crave EVERYTHING that’s bad for me.

That is all for now.

Hiatus

I have been gone, for a while now, which makes me a terrible blogger. Why did I take a Hiatus, you ask? I’m really not sure, part of it I guess is because my physical activity has severely decreased, and probably mostly out of pure laziness. Well I miss blogging and I am back, but now I wont just focus on fitness and health but just my life in general.  Now that life includes my attempt at becoming healthier, greener and incorporating that into my family life, being a mother, photographer and etc. etc.

It feels good to be back.

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9, originally uploaded by Lizeth True.

Because I now consider myself a runner, because running is now a part of me, and because I want to thank my shoes.

Exercise: Back in Business

As you know I have been meaning to get back in the gym, running, and etc. In fact, my husband kept talking about how he needs to get back in the gym as well. We both started to suck as soon we arrived here in Norfolk. Anyway, the other day I came up with the perfect idea for us to get back to the gym. For a while now I was used to living with the rents, a mom or a dad or a sister to watch my daughter while I worked out and now it’s either Zach or me… So we ended up deciding we would both stay home and not work out and well, that wasn’t working out so well.

So I suggested a few days ago that we both get back to the gym 3 days a week each, I will be working out Sundays, Tuesday and Thursdays and Zach will be going Monday, Wednesday and Fridays. I also went even further to make sure we don’t get lazy and decide not to go; the only way either of us can skip out on a gym day is if we trade days with the other person. Genius, I know. I came up with the perfect plan for the both of us, and we both get to be each others referees, no cheating allowed. On Saturdays we will workout together in the comfort of our home during Sophie’s naptime.

After I came up with my genius plan, I came across this website, recommended to me by WomensHealth.com to help people stay motivated and I have to say, this idea is genius, and if I had any money I would totally do it. The website is www.stickk.com and it works like this… You make a goal, find a referee and put some money down. Money, you say?? That’s right, what’s a bigger motivator than putting your own money at stake. Anyway, you decide how much money you want to put up, bet, donate, whatever you want to call it and if you fail at your goal/commitment you lose that money. That money will go wherever you want to go, its up to you, you can donate it to a charity, or as Women’s Health suggests, (I think this is a great idea, it would surely motivate me) if you’re a diehard liberal (or republican) put the money up to donate to your opposing party… What can be more motivating than to NOT want to donate money to those damn republicans?

Anyway…

Yesterday was day one and I was dreading the scale. I used to weigh myself every single time I went to the gym. (About 5-6 times a week) And since I hadn’t been to the gym in over a month, I was afraid of what the scale would say. The last time I was at 135lbs, and since I have been feeling my love handles creep up on me these last couple of weeks I was hesitant to step on that scale. So there I am, face to face to the scale, sometimes it’s my best friend and sometimes it can be my worst enemy…

So what was it yesterday?

Yesterday, it was better than a best friend, it was a lover for a moment there.. I stood on that scale waiting to be at least 138lbs and to my surprise I was 128lbs! I have no clue when I lost that weight, and I don’t care, I am just glad that I am below the 130lb mark… I can’t remember the last time I weighed under 135 and I am uber ecstatic… Now I can go to the gym and feel even better.  It felt so good to run again, now I just need to work myself back up to that 5k.  Short-term goal: Run a 5k for the second time, this coming Sunday.

Wow, that was a lot of rambling… Do I over ramble? Be honest now.

 

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8, originally uploaded by Lizeth True.

My favorite movies, starting with Pulp Fiction.